Have you ever had this emotion when you see someone's OC you reely like and you just wish you made that character? Like you feel like your characters just arrent good compared to them?

Well there was a time i felt this emotion alot, especialy in my earlier years on the web. I beleave it was most prominant for me when the golden era of FNF was in full swing. I loved all of the characters there alot, but i just had this envy where i felt like i coudnt produce characters with as good of designes as OCs from FNF mods. I also felt it alot when i first joined NG. I saw so many cool OCs and i wished alot that i was the one who created them. Many of my OCsi created back them had frankly very little thought put into them, plus my art back then was just bad. I feel this might have been the major source of that low self-esteem i once had.

But eventualy when i got better at art and i did genuinely place more thought into my designs wich reely helped me getting my self esteem in regards to character design skills. And people also started to like my OCs alot, asking questions about their lore, making fanart, me just talking about my inspirations behind the designs, and etc. I dont feel this envy anymore compared to what i used to feel. One coud say it is good that its gone, but imma be honest: i think that envy has motivated me to put more effort and thought into my OCs rather than being a defeatist who just wallow in self-pity.

I am genuinely very happy with my character designs now. Of cource some of my designs are leauges better and more developed than some other OCs, but there is a thing called redesigning and that honestly is a nice source of me to expand my ideas for my characters.

Is there a message behind this blogpost? Not reely, but i just reely wanted to explain an emotion i frankly havent felt in a while. And if you have ever felt this emotion: use it as a way to motivate you to put more inspiration in your design rather than just giving up, thinking your skills are trash.